The sound of sakuma drop candies rattling around in their metal container makes me wanna cry

So if you've ever watched 'Grave of the Fireflies', you should know what the hell Sakuma Drops are :D
and like all Studio Ghilbli movies, this one is also directed at children.
it's basically about WWII in japan and specifically, how a boy and his little sister coped with the situation
it's not as fun and exciting as Spirted Away or Howl's Moving Castle but it's...thought-provoking?
i probably wouldn't have been able to finish the movie if i wasn't watching it with a friend >_>''
and my friend say it was pretty boring
but honestly, for me, it was too depressing to be boring T^T

but man, i must be a masochist for buying sakuma drops D:
when i rattle the tin can, i feel like crying
of course i don't actually cry but my eyes get a bit reddish >_>''
and i remember how depressing the movie was D:

but
i'm
actually
a sadist
and underneath a masochist
and under that a sadist again
but also a masochist
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and so on?

no but really,
imma sadist :DD